In my last Spring semester at Carolina, I led a three-day revolution which bucked the Daily Tarheel's trend of YWC fluff pieces, bringing level-headed critics out of the woodwork to explain how absurd this is. If I have done nothing else to advance society, I've at least accomplished this.

Okay. One class, four exams, two papers, one project. Then fake graduation. Then a semester of summer school. Then another semester of summer school. Then a fall semester.
THEN I GRADUATE FOR REAL!
THEN I GET A DOG!
THEN I GET A JOB OH GOD I HOPE!
THEN I GET MARRIED!

I'm hoping I'll see a horizon soon for this whole being-done-with-college thing. Granted, I technically have a semester and a half left to find some sort of glee and nostalgia, but I'm pretty ready to be done with this. I'll miss the occasionally raucous parties, some small sense of community, and being on that beautiful campus -- but it's nice to be pretty sure I have more things to look forward to than things I'll miss.

WOOT

MAN I love living in a complex so close to Duke. I had to grab my cell phone from my car and just saw a three-car caravan of undergrads file back in, rubbing off their paint, and then stopping to stare at my Ellington jersey. <3 <3 <3

4-0 in Cameron, man. 4-0. Best time to be a senior at UNC!

i guess that bluescreen a couple weeks ago was legit. Maybe I dropped my computer, maybe I didn't, but reinstalls of all the programs aren't working, so, I mean, everyone knows I get to do my favorite thing. REINSTALL, YAAAAAY!!! I never trust that damn reinstall partition, newfangled user-friendly crap like that belongs in a Mac.

I DON'T CARE IF YOU'VE NEVER HAD A PROBLEM WITH YOUR MAC.

I heart PCs like nobody's business. The fact that I can dictate whatever I want to Dell is pretty cool, too. Tweaking and running everything on the planet and upmodding, man... and then when something goes wrong, I get to fix it. omfg seriously, it's so fun. No sarcasm. As long as I don't lose actual data (re: that one time I ignored a blue screen error for like 5 months and lost all my music, and I had a year-old backup of the collection), I'm actually more than happy to reinstall. I'd compare the feeling to buying a brand new spiral-bound notebook. No pages wrinkled, ripped out, smudged -- 100% clean slate, and you know for a fact, cause you did it yourself. Plus this always inspires me to clean up my "Sarah is Disorganized" folder. I really do have a folder with that exact name because it's true.

Also, it is a weekend -- so while I'm catching up on all my reading, I can blissfully comply with installation prompts.

I got 99 problems but a tech support issue's not one.

"The lights are red, but I'm gonna keep dancing..."

2/3 classes got cancelled -- which is good, because after looking outside and deciding I was going to watch the inauguration instead of going to my first class, I eventually decided I shouldn't go out at all. I've also just lost my last contact, yaaaay.

I e-mailed the professor for my 5:00-6:15 class and basically told her that black ice was not my friend... so I'm staying holed away in the bedroom with the space heater today.


BTW, <3 #44!!!

Watching that helicopter fly away with George and Laura Bush made me giddy. It was like it was taking them to another planet...

2-4 inches of snow, cross your fingers

I'm hoping that because tomorrow is also an INCREDIBLY HISTORIC PRESIDENTIAL INAUGURATION maybe, MAYBE that might be enough for UNC to say -- "okay, there are enough compounding factors here to cancel class..."

But that's incredibly unlikely.

We had a light ice storm at the end of my first semester at UNC, and Alyssa and I had to hold on to each other to keep from slipping on the sidewalk and breaking our backs on the way to our exams one day. It was pretty much the closest I've ever come to actually ice-skating.

Ehhh. Reading time.

um yeah so i have to like sprint across cameron ave. to get between my 2:00 and 3:30 classes. i'm not sure it's possible. we'll find out. maybe not today, depending on how my phil/ed professor feels about letting us out early.

ehhhhhhh i hate campus sometimes.

i think it has something to do with (what i perceive to be) a majority of the student population -- who still seem like they're stuck in high school and never ever coming out. it's frustrating. i hoped it wouldn't feel like this by my senior year. sometimes i wonder if northwood just wasn't cliquey enough, because as much as i hate to admit it, i kind of miss it. i find that the people i like most in college are the ones who are initially quiet, the ones who are really genuinely here to learn and are really interested in what they're learning, the ones who don't walk into a room on the first day of class and have twelve people say "OH HEY!!!!!!"


... I miss being one of the smart kids.

i have walking pneumonia, again, as if this is news. my doctor told me i have to go to the hospital in a week if i don't get better by then.

i normally wait too long to take care of this anyway, but there's too much fluid building up in my lungs or something like that and she thinks i'm going to get real pneumonia if i don't react to the z-pack immediately.

oh yeah and classes start on monday.


ehhhhhh.

alex bought me gatorade on his way home this morning and has been checking in on me. we watched the first 48 and now i'm ready to go back to sleep again. besides that i've been basically playing tetris on my ds.

i am so lame.

THERE IS NO HOPE

sleep and i will just never work.

also i have had an intermittent cough for like 2 months now? and my head keeps getting all... stuffy. maybe it's doctor time.


eh.



i think i'm going to call this realtor to look at a house right down the road from our townhouse.

it's tiny and (from the outside) adorable. i see it every time i drive home. i promised mark i wouldn't fall in love with it or something stupid.

it's not like we have the money to buy a house or anything. but we were remembering what it was like when i was kind of living with him in his one-bedroom place before we moved, and how nice it was to be so close, and how cheap it was (well, would have been).



man.

i have to plan a wedding and stuff.

i also have to graduate.

yeah, not this semester! psssh. high-five if you're on the 4 1/2+ plan!

Sooooo the class average on that huge term paper for that poli sci grad class I just finished was a 62.71.

93 UP IN THIS HO, MUTHA TRUCKAS

Seriously, I feel so good about myself right now (in spite of the whole i-have-a-horrible-cold thing).

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT

I got on the internet to post a new alcoholic drink I have invented and of which have become a #1 fan.

2 parts Margarita mix
2 parts vodka
1 part orange juice

I call it The Russian Sabbatical. No ice/freezing/blending/mixing required, as long as contents are cold to begin with (vodka from freezer). Ice is optional, in case you must have cold -- but in my mind, a Ruski has traveled to Mexico and is enjoying a nice brunch margarita (thus the OJ) on the beach. It is sickeningly sweet and fruity and girly and cheap and retarded but effects are lovely.

I haven't tried it with Aristocrat, but I'm hazarding a guess that even the crappiest vodka is undetectable. It's like Gogo's PJ.

I may just have waaaay too high of a tolerance; hopefully this is not the issue. Stereotypically, my people cannot handle their firewater. FYI, I can make a mean Gin & Sin, ask the fiancé.

Regardless -- semester's over: I'm spending the night on the couch watching TV, wasting time online, maybe doing some stupid PC gaming, drinking my beverage, and otherwise doing NOTHING.
Mark is asleep upstairs and Alex is asleep on the other couch. LIFE IS SO CHILL.

(also a+ to my Soulmate, Lykke Li is like water to my musical soul)

Things I Am Thankful For : 2008 Edition
(not entirely inclusive, obviously)

- Mark Oniffrey
- and subsequently my family, of course
- President-Elect Barack Obama and the election
- Emily Clark-Kramer
- My cervical treatment, and that it was caught early
- My (eventually) successful wisdom tooth removal
- Aylim Castro, Dr. Glen Martin, Lizzette Potthoff, Kathleen Transue, Dr. Lisa Emrich, Dr. Jon Williams, and Dr. Jim Kurz
- Getting off antidepressants
- Reconciling with Ed
- Being able to be with Pete when he died
- Meeting (and now knowing) Mark's friends
- The beginning of the year, to figure out where I was going
- Rikki's health
- Turning 21
- Ann Coulter's jaw being wired shut
- Sarah Palin. Seriously.

finally,

- hope.

i just came up with a good title for a term paper for the first time ever

today has been 100% concentrated shit.

MY FACE HURTS AND I'M STUFFED UP AND CCO IS MAKING ME CRAZY AND I WANT TO EITHER SCREAM OR JUST GO TO SLEEP OR BOTH.

Everything is going to be okay.

For real.


I've been given a chance to find myself and live my life in a way I've never been able to do before -- and I cannot put into words how fortunate I am.

Here we go.

life is complicated.
i also make obvious statements.

i spent yesterday afternoon/evening in student health with an IV in my arm.

stomach flu!

don't touch anyone at UNC, you'll catch it. i was like the 30th person they'd seen just that day.

so i studied last night. a lot. so much that i turned off my alarm this morning and managed to miss two classes. but i felt really good about this test. really good.

it was horrible. it raped, pillaged, burned, and then kicked you in the balls. it was horriffic. i wanted to cry.

and now i have to post for my online class and then i take a shower and go **out** with mark.

good news: did not die in a black hole last night.
bad news: still have to take latin test
other news: i have three doctors appointments today: 12:10-1, 1-2, 2:45-4
more good news: theresa is coming with me to sr. bar night at the library (because i missed he's not)

and i think dell is supposed to be dropping off my new laptop today. and that requires a signature. which is really, really lame.