Things I Am Thankful For : 2008 Edition
(not entirely inclusive, obviously)

- Mark Oniffrey
- and subsequently my family, of course
- President-Elect Barack Obama and the election
- Emily Clark-Kramer
- My cervical treatment, and that it was caught early
- My (eventually) successful wisdom tooth removal
- Aylim Castro, Dr. Glen Martin, Lizzette Potthoff, Kathleen Transue, Dr. Lisa Emrich, Dr. Jon Williams, and Dr. Jim Kurz
- Getting off antidepressants
- Reconciling with Ed
- Being able to be with Pete when he died
- Meeting (and now knowing) Mark's friends
- The beginning of the year, to figure out where I was going
- Rikki's health
- Turning 21
- Ann Coulter's jaw being wired shut
- Sarah Palin. Seriously.

finally,

- hope.

edward mclaurin is fucking awesome and i'm so fucking glad he's in my life.

things are weird.

i'm not acting like myself. i'm irritable and angry and antisocial. fortunately, the fact that i am now 21 and can go to bars and stuff is nice. it sort of helps out with my overwhelming desire to be alone. ed and i went to... someplace on franklin st. last night. probably one of the best things to happen to me in like... weeks. i finally chilled out and could discuss things like a normal person. for four and a half hours. also the bartender was really nice.

i went to jordan's grave yesterday; his birthday was monday. his parents (who are now divorced) had apparently left flowers. i wish i could talk to them.

i wish a lot of things.

i have also just discovered that today, frank posted the only postcard i ever mailed in to postsecret.

i sent it months ago, and the world is fucking with me.